Think Like A Man/Lorax

At heart I'm a hopeless romantic....just being in a relationship with the love of my life meant that the theme in this movie resonated with me deeply. The core of this movie is that it's a love story or love stories.

The amazing thing about love is how it makes you realise things about yourself that you may not have ever known....or even makes you realise that you are the person you found giving yourself advice about. Are you the asshole, the lover, the loved or the beloved?

The relationship between Zeke and Mya reminded me the most about my relationship with love lost....I was sad today and this movie made it hit home....but you know that's the sign of a good movie for me - the emotion it evokes.

Zeke and Mya's relationship reminded me of mine with J!

I also managed to see "Dr. Seuss's Lorax".....hey don't judge me....I'm not a fan...but it was a movie I had to see - reason? It was the last movie me and J decided to see - and we never did. I would have loved to hold J's hands in the movie theatre while watching this one - he is a big fan of it!

Last planned movie with J!

Anyways peeps - Think Like a Man - awesome movie - the cast - phew - someone fan me because they are all major hot.....especially Michael Ealy!

Lawdy - ummmm!

Peeps - take it ez!

Existence

So, this is how I feel these days....it seems that after me and J have called it quits that I'm right back to where I was some 7 or 8 months ago.....a big empty apartment. It was one thing whilst we were together and we were at our respective homes - in my mind, there was the comfort of knowing that someone loved me and that they would be there.

Now, it seems that when I'm alone with my memories and thoughts, I really miss the existence of love....now there's the existence of a void.

A huge part of this ordeal, is me not being able to change my ways....at least not in the short term....with time it would have been possible. It's also hard for me to open up and communicate in a relationship....J has given me several chances to do, and still articulation is hard.....it's something I know needed work on, and I wanted it to be to the point where it was a condition reflex...i'm simply not good at talking....

I look at the couples around me and wonder how did they do it? What's on their minds? Are they happy? I'd like to have that...in fact that was what I wanted with J....

Anyways, peeps here's a song by a band called "The Head and the Heart" (appropriately titled I'd say) called "Lost in My Mind".

Anyways peeps - TTYL

Bittersweet

Well tonight I went to mass - Easter Sunday mass, on a Saturday night....t'was three hours long, but it passed fairly quickly - it felt like two...not that I was having a good time or anything, but it just moved at a good pace.

In front of me, were a family - a gorgeous bunch - mom, dad and three little ones....they seemed simple, humble and completely together.....I teared up a bit, and felt happy and sad at the same time. Happy that there is still commitment to family, and sad, somehow wishing I had that with Jess!

Through my relationship with J, I found out how difficult/challenging any relationship can be....and seeing that family today, just reminded me of how fragile life is, and also how beautiful at the same time.

So are you this, in your relationship?

or, this?

Happy Easter peeps!